!$#^%@$*%^&(#*#^@

okay~

So.. i AM PIST!

why?

its been friggin 23 days since i've been in Auckland. And.. I've been helping my aunt merchandize for quite a few times already.. like.. waking up at 5am in the morning.. going to different pak n save's to go fill up stock.. (working right?)

Well..

today was another typical wednesday where i wake up at 4am in the morning and going out with my aunt all the way to Bottany Down's Pak n Save. As Christmas nears.. there are more stock to be filled up.

Things went well as we entered the supermarket. Walked to the aisle where the products that my aunt supplies are.. Met uncle Dave who happens to be there early to help out.

Standing in front of the products that we were suppose to fill, an INDIAN FUCKING (part) ADVISOR comes walking up to me and asks for my pass.. Of course.. i don't have one as i'm only helping out my aunt. My aunt told him that i'm with her and i'm only coming in to help out.

THAT FUCKING IDIOT DID NOT BOTHER TO ASK ANYTHING ELSE AND KICKED US OUT OF THE PLACE!!! he was like.. no pass? get out! AND FREAKING NOT POLITE OR PATIENT AT ALL ~ he went.. 'keep walking. go out now.'.. i was like.. WTF? is he mentally disabled? WAD THE~~~ couldn't even let my aunt finish talking.. WTF?!

he wasn't the only 'manager'. the other managers were so busy. and the kiwi's didn't even care. he was the one who had nothing better to do and to find fault..( i guess his wife didnt wanna have sex with him last night and so he let his temper go on me..WTF?! or...better yet.. HE DOESN'T HAVE A WIFE!!!! )

waking up at 4am for nothing. -.- but we did go all the way to sylvia park's pak n save.. and guess what...NONE OF THEM CARED! seeeee!!! that moron had nothing better to do.. oh well..

my aunt told my uncle.. and later he went all the way to that pak n save to talk to the owner.. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA~ that bastard got SCREWED! (take that! asshole!)

phew.. i can't believe people can be so.. overruled by the power that was given to them.. stupid bastard! ><

PS: sorry for the swearing.. can't help it.. that idiot really pist me off badly..-.-

new obsession!

Recently..

i'm obsessed with LOMOGRAPHY! X)

one of the lomography pictures..

i'm to choose one of the above~><"

there are more from the aussie webpage...

still can't decide tho..

arrrgghhh~~~~T_T

4 more days

yay! Christmas~ my 1st year ( after so long ) celebrating in Auckland with my aunt and ... aunts? hmmmm..

Anyway..

Auckland is amazing.. i loooooveeee the Christmas deco's all around. It's such a special occasion.. and definitely can't leave out~

PRESENTSSS!!! XDD

oh i love! <3

yay~~~~~ X) gonna be a VERY busy week though..

argh..

still have to study for my upcoming test..T_T ( cbb atm...)

ah well..

OFF TO SLEEP!

night-O~ X)

walking away~

there are so many troubles in my life..

but i'm walking away..

to find a better day..

to live a better life..

sometimes people get me wrong..

with all the things that i've said and done..

so i choose to walk away..

from all these troubles in my life~

hang out

So today..

I ended up meeting a friend from Christchurch.. Same uni, same group of friends..but we've never really hung out.. so aren't really close..the last time i saw here was.. September? ><" She was here since the 18th of November. ( At least I have a Malaysian friend here~ ~ ~ )

So we decided to go to Sylvia Park .. ( again! ) to chat and eat.. and a bit of shopping..=p

Ah well.. it was a bumpy ride today~ ><" its because i couldn't recognize the roads in Auckland.. and we had to make big turns..here and there... LOL~~ == wasn't even funny.. hahahaha.. 两个路痴～～

Anyway~

Hung out with my aunt and a bunch of her friends after that.. went for dinner ( we live to eat u see~~ ) and then.. desserts! XDD hahahhaa~~~~~ my favourite papaya! X)

Sometimes i think that i'm asking too much~am i?

I'm off to bed..tired..

GOOD NIGHT~!!!!

and another day goes by..

☻

And there goes my saturday~

What a fast 12 hours that passed by~

Can't believe i actually walked 3 malls today~~

From Botany Town to Manukau then to Slyvia Park.. -.-

Did a lot of shopping today~~~!! XDD hahahaha~~~ wad a girls day~~(:

Ah well..

Been thinking alot lately as well~~><"

AM SO TIRED I SHALL GO TO BED!

tootles~~<3

i don't say what i know, i know what i say

HA!

And so another day goes by..✖

I was going through EVERY single person's blog on my list..

and some from Fishyee's.. She has quite a number of links there~

But one thing is, most of the links are either removed or not updated or.. permission denied. -.-

Hmmm.. I seriously wonder what is happening to all them bloggers now a days.. they just stop blogging..which is...VERY sad~ T_T

Ah well..

I was in a very bad mood yesterday. Got me thinking about my pass close girl friend.. her name was Joan. It was just 2 years ago when we completely stopped talking to each other.. and now, we are just mere strangers. Things that happened was just accidents, but.. i guess there was PEOPLE who had to poison their own children's mind and set them sailing.. oh well.. I'll just have to get over the fact that i've lost a 'friend'.. or just take her as an ALIEN~~~ o.O

And another thing hit me..

A thai friend of mine whom i met in Christchurch a few months ago.. sent me a msg and saying that she won't be going back to Christchurch anymore..( nothing could make things better~ )..

Then..

Today~ i was talking to a person who i cared alot for.. and then we suddenly came to a topic which... everyone else would have as well..

The thing is.. i know it has nothing to do with me.. all i can do is just give support.. but when the words didn't come out right.. i got hit very bad .. felt like there were knives cutting through my heart.. that was how bad it is.. i was so upset i nearly cried.. i felt... hopeless.. seems like i'm carrying everything away instead of giving any help at all..

why would i even feel that way when it has nothing to do with me at all? It's all individual.. maybe i'm just disappointed? i'm asking too much? i care too much? i'm upset about it? or.. i'm being ridiculous?

Its just the effort that one put in.. but.. just giving it all away..

I'm tired.

I ♥ him.

But it sometimes feel that i'm overdoing things.

Or am i just thinking too much again?

counting down 10 more days..♧

and also..

another 52 more days..☺

say whats on your mind

say whats on your mind..

and make it quick!

or you will regret..

you never try..

you will never know~

✂ the ugly truth ♧

Was watching this alone yesterday at aunt's place cause i got TOO bored..

this movie is actually fantastic..(:

its a great way to learn about relationships in life..

a quote from the movie::

Mike: Rule #4: Never talk about your problems 'cause men don't really listen or care.

Abby Richter: Some men care!

Mike: No, some men pretend to care. When we ask "how you're doing" it's just guy code for "let me stick my dick in your ass".

Abby Richter: OOH!

Mike: I know you think Colin is above it but trust me he's a guy. He's even remotely into you he's probably thought about each of your orifices at least ten times.

Abby Richter: I love how you assume all men are perverse as you are!

Mike: Oh, I don't assume. I know.

haha. the movie says it all..

but still..from the movie..

i also learnt one thing~~~~

'woman are control freaks'

but if a woman wants to be in control..why not?

woman who are not in control.. they get stepped on their heads..

at least.. this is how they get some respect~~~

and i guess, from that movie.. i also learnt that, there are actually girls who pretend to be someone that they are not in order to impress the guy that they like.. and why so? cause they thought by doing that, that guy that she got attracted to would fall and try to get her.. but what she doesnt know is that, once the true self appears.. the guy runs away.. why? cause all the while they only loved the cover of that girl and not her true self.. ( ridiculous.. -.- )

i mean.. it happens both ways right? if a guy were to act like someone they are not just to get a girl.. thats gonna end up in a disaster.. hahahah~~~~

so i guess. being who you really are is the most important thing in life. ( face it! )

you would not know if someone TRULY loves you unless you present ur REAL self.. repeat.. R-E-A-L~ self.

some girls just.. aren't too confident in themselves.. so they hide and hide who they really are.. and i figure.. if a girl has a great personality, why not just be who u are? looks aren't everything.. one day, you would grow old and eventually.. ur FACE would fade away.. age will take over.. so? what matters more? looks or personality? i think most people know the answer~ (:

for me, i'd go for a presentable, truthful and caring person who accepts me for who i am.. i won't change who that person is.. nor would that person want to change me.. we live our lives.. do our own thing.. but still.. spend our sweet times together.. ( found him! ^^ ) but yeah.. he is far away at the moment.. ><"

respect. love. cherish. thats what i know. (:

53 more days~~^6^

♫1.2.3♫

♫1.2.3..♫ ( sings Britney.. )

arghhh. this MATH109 assignment is really giving me a BIG FAT HEADACHE! T_T

and the best part is.. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT! -.-

♪..do do do do do do do do do do..♪♪~ kids - MGMT

i'm bored. i'm tired. i hate it. ☹

♞~~ siggh~~ facing assignments everyday is like sitting in jail and facing the friggin wall every dam day~~~T_T

its 56 more days arr~~ T_T

had a friggin nightmare again ar~~T_T

its about death again............( and i'm not kidding. so worried that there is gonna be death.. )

gerrrrammmmmm............

happiness☺

Went out the whole day with my aunt today..

travelled from town to new market..

down to st lukes area..

then to greenlane area..

while them aunties were happily talking..

they were talking about their life.. and how happy and satisfied they are..

anytime..

a "Green Light" is all they need..

and they are all at their late 40's..

they got me thinking.. ( mostly about what they were talking about.. )

happiness is easy to get.. easy to find.. and easy to lose..

simplicity is the key to happiness..thats all i know..

like for me..

i think living a simple life..

finish studying. getting along with a bunch of buddies. explore..etc.

and of course.. getting the right person to go thru life with. ( but not all agrees as some prefers a single life.. i say, depending on ur fate? >< )

come to think of it.

eventhough i had a rough past..

but i'm having a new life. and its a great one.

i have a bunch of buddies back in penang. the ones that are truthful and sincere.

i have a few close friends here who i know i can trust.

i'm having a great time studying in uni .. on my way to getting a degree. (:

i have people who actually care for me..

i have a great family..

and my bonus in life.

i have found someone to go through the coming life with me..

he is sincere, he is truthful, he is honest, he is caring, he knows what i want.

and most of all..

♠-he is loyal.

a person with commitments. ( i love that )

a person who is responsible..

i actually do feel lucky. like. really..

i have more than everything that i can ask for in life.

i am contented. (:

♥ ~

assignment.

dam..

math109 is really destroying my mood atm.. >_<"

it's annoying...

stupid maple...( and i need to finish my assignment using maple.. far out! >< )

miserable...

><"

stupid stupid stupid!!!!

心寒

今天天晴， 原本心情很好..

但是又被某些事情打倒了~~~siggh..

未来的事情..

没人会知道~~

我们。。。

到底。。。还有机会吗？

TT

quotes

i spent half my day trying to figure out how to download the maplesoft for my math assignment.. and of course.. with the help of my peeps.. it was done! i didn't have to download.. i just needed to connect to uni from aucky~~ ><"

anyway..

since my aunt wasn't feeling very well.. i had to go with her to get the acupuncture done.

and so.. while waiting.. i saw this classic pooh book that was left on the table..

i opened it..

and read it..

o m g..

wasn't it cute now..(:

"those who are clever, who has a brain, never understands anything"

- winnie the pooh

“"Pooh," said Rabbit kindly, "you haven't any brain."
"I know," said Pooh humbly.”

-winnie the pooh

"nobody can be uncheered with a balloon"

-winnie the pooh

awww..

♫hum ta dum dum dum.. ♫

mission bay

i want to go Mission Bay again!

and this time..

i'm going with 私のジラフ！

55555~~~ X))

the scenery is just wonderful~

and it only starts to get dark in Auckland at 9pm..

and I'm sooo getting there again!

awww..

Movenpick

this place is just marvelous!

why?

its friggin ice cream!! ^^

pretty much like hagen daaz. ( but much less variety.. )

waiting...waiting...

63 more days to go! (: